It is no secret, primarily because I am a blabber mouth, that I have way too much time on my hands.
An argument could be made, a compelling one at that, that I am a workaholic, so learning to relax at thirty nine is truly a blessing.
Hogwash!
No matter how I try, there is no way sitting down doing nothing is going to be good for me. Even if I was able to lobotomize myself I am certain my body would autonomically throw itself on the floor and convulse itself around the room like a human dust mop.
I.just.can’t.not.do!
I know, and I am sorry for you learned readers and I agree that I should have paid better attention in grammar classes, but the mold has been set so just think of me as special and rejoice in the fact that I can communicate at any level.
I will say however, I am not like I used to be (and all of SouthEastern Virginia rejoices) in that for the most part I am content. It may seem contrary to say that given the declarative statement above, but for me there is a difference in what I do and what I think and what I am.
I have always been pluralistic. Some would call that schizophrenia (should I be concerned I spelled that correctly on the first try) and it probably is a form of it, but I can and often do watch and hear myself in third person. I have always had this ability and sometimes the ability to do it has completely enamored me. There are conversations that I have recorded where I have literally watched myself talking from multiple angles and can replay the scene in my mind with such clarity that I can see my own expressions.
Okay, THAT is weird.
My point is, I have always been able to separate the inner me from the outer me from the other inner me. I chalk this up to the fact that I really paid attention when learning about the trinity. I figure if God is three in one and I am created in His image, I should expect the same for me. And me. And the other me.
For clarity, lets call my body Davie, by spirit Dave and my soul David. Forget clarity, lets call them that for amusement. Davie has always been and will always be on the go. Ask Mom, ask my wife, ask anyone who works with me and they will tell you, Davie can’t sit still, is quite content to be doing, and will most likely lie twitching for hours even after Dave and David are united up with Pa Pa.
It is Davie, primarily because of his ability to inflict discomfort and pain, that has received most of the attention these last thirty nine years. There is good reason for this, without Davie Dave and David would be of little use. Davie is the baby and everyone knows babies are self centered and unreasonable. Because of Davie, Dave and David have had much extra work to do. To be fair, Davie only does what Dave asks him to do and most times Dave spends too much time apart from David so Davie ends up doing things Dave really wants to do instead of things David is not allowed to do.
Ehem.
Lately, David has been given more head time but this has led to a disturbing discovery. Dave, with the willing help of Davie, have created a lifestyle and environment that David does not think we all were suited for and is determined to destroy.
For instance, David hates technology. That is a very real problem because Dave really liked technology as he could hid himself in his abilities and protect Davie and himself from the world. David does not think this is reality, is a complete waste of time, and destructive. David is correct, but David is also very zealous and to be honest has no concept of the ramifications this will have on Dave and Davie. David is quite comfortable being who he is, we applaud that attribute, but resent the determination he has to make the others comfortable in that as well.
David is making changes that Dave is not very comfortable with.
After considering the place David wants to take Dave and Davie, Dave is actually the only one that is objecting. Dave has an overinflated sense of responsibility that must be dismantled, but Dave can feel it coming so pushes against it. Davie and David are ganging up on him to force him to take a break, and Dave fears they will accomplish just that.
Don’t tell anyone, but Dave is really happy about that.