Every day it get’s more and more…..
I seem to be doing much waiting lately. Even though I am busy, very busy, I am still waiting.
Not sure if that even makes sense, or even possible, but it is how I feel and everyone knows feelings are reality.
sigh.
There is so much going on in my life I can hardly keep up with it and that irritates me. It irritates me because it is like the the last month of school before summer vacation. I can see what I want, it is just beyond my reach, and between me and it is a never ending procession of tests and finals and meetings and clutter.
The worst part is, I can’t just climb over the pile.
I have to attend to each end every item, no matter how insignificant, and put it in its place.
It ‘s just so much work.
Mundane drudgery that just seems so endless compared to the gleaming prize at the end of road.
So I wait and I plan and pick up and put down and slide and topple and kick and repair and rest and begin again.
I am gaining ground, sluggishly slow most days, but gaining ground.
The funny thing? The weird part? The most ridiculous thing?
I have no idea where I am going.
I can see it, it has no form, no definition, no clarity, it just sits there out ahead.
Calling, beckoning, alluring, pulling.
Quietly asking the question but secretly shielding the answer until curiosity compels me to move.
Move through the pile of stuff that needs tending.
Because good things come to those who wait.