Saturday we had our 22 week checkup on our baby girl. She is doing great, Mom is doing great, Dad is doing great and everything looks perfect.
I am not sure if it is our age, losing our last baby, my sisters struggling with their pregnancies, or exactly what has changed, but whatever it is this pregnancy has been very different.
In a very good way.
I know we appreciated the other pregnancies, but this time around I think we know better. We know that getting pregnant and delivering a healthy baby is not an automatic package deal. We know that sometimes our hopes and prayers go unanswered and outcomes arrive that did not fit our plans. We know that everything can change in an instant, that life is a wisp, a breath, a vapor, and the challenge is to make the most of every moment because one day every moment will be gone.
We are so blessed to be able to experience the wonder of it all this time around. To be able to move past the understanding and mechanics and clinical definitions. To remove the surface marks placed by inferior intellect in vain attempts to comprehend divine design. To forget what you think you know and rely on what you know you feel and soak it in and rest in the peace of it.
To become child like and stare at the world for what it is.
It is an amazing feeling to place your hands on the wife of your youth and feel your daughter alive inside and simply experience. Linger in the moment long enough and before long everything else just fades to black. To quietly look and feel and hear and remember that life is in the living, experience is the truer pursuit over knowledge and the moment is all we ever have.
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And the moment is quite enough.